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G., I am sure you have been reminded of me several times in these
last days reding the papers about Austria.
As you can imagine I have been, & am, greatly troubled by the
My relatives so far as I can judge are in no sort of danger as they
ˇalmost all of them are retiering & very respected
My brother & sisters are, under the new laws, jews[,| (]not
however their children, (as they had no jewish grandparents
& baptized great-grandparents).
Nevertheless, of course, the new regime
about myself that I ˇreally want to write.
|Now it is|
It is however mainly
29 not yet heard from home at all
since the invasion, but there hasn't yet been time, & my people would always
try to give me news in the mildest possible form so as not to worry
I have written home saying that I would come any time if they
needed me, but I almost assume that they have no need for me (not that they
wouldn't like to see me).
I am placed in a queer position.
As you know I am automatically becomming a
german Citizen, i.e. a german
ˇNow I must say
The very thought of becoming a german Citizen is to me, even appart from the degrading position etc., but this
latter I would share with my relatives & could,
I think, bring myself to bear.
Though I don't know whether it not continouously
preying on my mind.
A still gr[i|a]ver consequence however is this that on visiting Austria I
shall, in all likelyhood, not be let
ˇto England again.
You understand of course that it is out of the question for me to
30 get any job there even if it were possible I could hardy face
You may call this weakness but such it is)
My people are wealthyis⌊c⌋h &
will probably even after all the changes [be|have]
so money enough to keep me.
But I needn't say what that would mean [t|f]o⌊r⌋ me.
So I [h|a]m now
Therefore now I have been
considering th seriously the idea of acquiring Brittish
You know that I had just
thought of this ˇpossibility before though never
giving it any serious conside-ration for reasons which you & I have talked
They roughly are, that I don't wish to become a sham-englishman.
The situation has however changed in my eyes now as I have to choses between a new
which deprives me of everything &
one which at least gives me the opportunity of working in a country in which I have lived most
& the best of my adult life have made
my greatest friends & have done my best work.
I wish to God that there did not adhere to
such a possibility
the respectability etc.
etc. which (though it does not repell
me) is not what I seek.
But this can't be helped.
There is one enormously st⌊r⌋orng reason
which would ˇfor me could speak against acquiring a
new nationality & it is this, that in all
likelyhood as a
brittish citizen I shall be bared ˇby
from re entering Austria &
therefore from seeing my family, except by meeting them, say, in Switzerland.
But I don't see at present that this would be wo⌊r⌋se
ˇfor me or them tha[t|n]
ˇmy rotting alive in Austria
or being hau⌊n⌋ted by a false position & anxiety
seriously considering the trying to be nati acquire brittish
It may of course be that before even this come about I shall be summoned home by a letter from my people ˇ(in which case I go) but this I have no reason to believe this[.|;] they would never dream of calling me unless in the greatest
[a|A]s you can imagine had held many Cabinet
|For these reasons I am|
I am therefore
32 meetings ˇhave been held in my mind about these matters all this, but I also
wish to talk [it|them] over with you – level-headedly.
therefore to come to England
in 12 days time
i.e. on the … if you can possibly save the weakend for me.
You might, just to make discussion easier, make some
enquieries about the proceedings of nationalisation – un[s|l]ess, that is, you are in my case
dead against it.
Please let me know as soon as possible if, where &
when you can meet me.
Forgive me for making you read
long letter please don't throw it away & read it
if you can.
Whatever you may think about my problem I am